The Importance of Sleep
As per my last post, I am struggling for sleep right now. There appears to be two main factors as to why this is happening.
(1) Full Moon. Now before you go saying there is no proof the moon has an effect on anything I ask you to consider the following. Psych departments at hospitals have very heavy traffic in and around the full moon. Any ER room medic or doctor will tell you the same thing. In aged care the residents require more one on one care during the full moon. For me it makes me restless, my dreams are shadows of ghosts and things past. They are self defeating and soul destroying. Add to that voices and delusions and you are sort of half way there.
I know that without the meds I would be in full mania, with delusions, I would be a danger to myself and everyone around me. My partner normally picks up on the behavior changes then looks up. It kind of helps me knowing that the feelings I am having and that I am living will go away once the moons presence fades.
(2) A medical condition i have called post nasal drip. Its allowing mucus to gather in my throat causing me to cough or stop breathing. Actually a bit of both. It seems as soon as I get to deep sleep I have to sit up an cough or I cant breath. I have seen the doctors some 12 times this year, cant get to see a specialist until early march, even then I am unsure of how I will find the approx $10,000 for surgery.
I got some reasonable sleep last night. I feel a lot better today, but have been sitting down and then finding I have fallen asleep in the chair. I try to wake up and do so for a minute or so then back to sleep. As the day has progressed I have been able to stay awake for longer so I hope I can sleep tonight.
For those who don't know or understand, sleep is the most important thing that your body does every day. Chemicals are washed from your blood stream, and your brain resets for the next day. Without REM and a reasonable amount of it, even the sanest people become delusional and mentally unstable. So for someone like me sleep isnt just something I can skip, if I do I must make it up. It is one of the many things I have learnt to bend my life around since I became ill.
So I hope tonight that I can sleep again and hopefully I can be of some use to the world tomorrow
(1) Full Moon. Now before you go saying there is no proof the moon has an effect on anything I ask you to consider the following. Psych departments at hospitals have very heavy traffic in and around the full moon. Any ER room medic or doctor will tell you the same thing. In aged care the residents require more one on one care during the full moon. For me it makes me restless, my dreams are shadows of ghosts and things past. They are self defeating and soul destroying. Add to that voices and delusions and you are sort of half way there.
I know that without the meds I would be in full mania, with delusions, I would be a danger to myself and everyone around me. My partner normally picks up on the behavior changes then looks up. It kind of helps me knowing that the feelings I am having and that I am living will go away once the moons presence fades.
(2) A medical condition i have called post nasal drip. Its allowing mucus to gather in my throat causing me to cough or stop breathing. Actually a bit of both. It seems as soon as I get to deep sleep I have to sit up an cough or I cant breath. I have seen the doctors some 12 times this year, cant get to see a specialist until early march, even then I am unsure of how I will find the approx $10,000 for surgery.
I got some reasonable sleep last night. I feel a lot better today, but have been sitting down and then finding I have fallen asleep in the chair. I try to wake up and do so for a minute or so then back to sleep. As the day has progressed I have been able to stay awake for longer so I hope I can sleep tonight.
For those who don't know or understand, sleep is the most important thing that your body does every day. Chemicals are washed from your blood stream, and your brain resets for the next day. Without REM and a reasonable amount of it, even the sanest people become delusional and mentally unstable. So for someone like me sleep isnt just something I can skip, if I do I must make it up. It is one of the many things I have learnt to bend my life around since I became ill.
So I hope tonight that I can sleep again and hopefully I can be of some use to the world tomorrow
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