Awake/Asleep
Just had one of those really unpleasant things you get when you take the number of meds I do. I get trapped between being conscious and being in deep sleep. I cant wake up and the dream is horrible to say the least. Todays was every time I went to sleep a weight would fall on me and I couldn't breath, I would try to wake, and could just enough to breath then it would happen all over again. Whats weird about todays dream, is its about a place I have been to a 1000 times in my dreams, its normally a happy place but today it was foreboding. Every time I got close to the house I could not breath. I could feel this pressure forcing me into the bed. This is part of the reason I don't sleep without medication. I wake constantly in fear like today. Its not nice I am screwed up enough without taking some beautiful child hood memories and destroying them in a couple mins ( which felt like hours). Anyway I am off to bed again hope this time the drugs can...