The Old Tin Shed

Whats started.  Not something important to others but to me its a major step forward.  It means mentally I have changed position yet again. That is really important in my longer term recovery and understanding of my own illness. So whats started.  I can listen to new music again.  Doesn't sound like much but it is.  Until recently new music made me tense and paranoid.  Then after all the stress of the last week changed me.  Now I crave new sounds new music.  It also has another meaning one that is extremely important to me, it means that I can now enjoy my gaming without having to give it up after 40 minutes. I am becoming the old me, the me that was ok that enjoyed to explore the world around him.  If I gain one more thing back, I will have recovered the parts of me that I wanted back.  That were taken away by the illness and medications.  I just need to be able to write short stories again.  I miss that creative ou...

Every now and again, a song comes along that changes the very way you think.  The way you see your world, or even more importantly made you feel something you hadn't before.  In my life I am happy to say there has been many of these songs.  I often relate a place and a time in my life to the discovery of that song. An example of this, though not a song is Fanfare for the Common Man.  To me it goes back to when I was a very small child, when it was the opening music for the ABC news in country Victoria.  I would get excited because it meant that dad was back from milking for the day.  As I grew older my music tastes changed from top 40 to stuff that was far darker.  By my early teens I was heavily into heavy metal music (the devils music according to some).  I look back at this period of my life, and I was searching.  Searching for what I don't know, maybe the real me, the one who wasn't the show child for my parents. The first heavy metal...