To Cope
Warning Heavy Rambling Post but please read The more and more I live with this illness I have begun to understand that you do some extraordinary things to just cope with the things that happen to you. Some days its just enough to know that tomorrow wont be the same as today. Sunrise another reason to make it through the night To live each moment without having plans for the future. A future that may never be. I have spent days inside my own head unable to escape to be part of the world around me. I have to prick myself to make me bleed so I can break away from the thoughts and the trap I set for myself. I don't mean self harm I mean I may listen to music or even read something that I know will evoke a mental reaction. Normally to make me cry. You say your insane why would you intentionally make yourself upset. Because if I don't I cant break free of the mental stress, the fixation the devastation...