The eve of change
Well today is a day that I have both dreaded and wished for. Contradiction no. I have wished for better medication, but dread what it means. You see I made a promise to myself a long time ago, that I would do everything in my power to get better, to become some kind of "normal". I hate that word, because no one is normal, yet it fits what I am trying to say. Part of this journey I have undertaken is a constant change of medications. Its been a hard road many days to sick to even be awake. But my life and my ability to live have benefited greatly for it. Yes there have been some steps back, but that is to be expected. Not every drug is going to work for me, such is the state of psychiatric drug therapy. So tonight I stand on the precipice again. I am willing taking a risk with my life, I am going to make myself unwell in the hope that a new medication will make my life better again. Its a hard choice, at my doctors today we went ove...