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I leave in the morning.

Well I leave at 6.00am I am as packed as I can get for now.  Nervous doesnt cut it to be honest. It will be good im sure, couple of days away from this house and everything I love, but I need the break more than I am probably going to admit while online, im sure the kms will glide by as I process my life for the past 12 months. I trust my car and my driving so wish me luck all.  I will blog along the way let you know where I am.  I look at this as the first day of a step towards dealing with my physcial health issues. See u all later

Disjointed day

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Its been an interesting day for me, I got my car back today and did some more work on it in preparation for the drive south. But I have had a strange day mentally.  Its like forgetfulness but not.  I would go to do something like get a drink and go to the pantry rather than the Fridge.  Its strange because once I do it I think well that was stupid and do it all over again. I even went for a lay down this afternoon, had a small sleep hoping it might fix it but it hasn’t.  Even typing this im all over the place with the letters.  Frustrating to say the least. Anyway, im sure after another 12 hours it will be all sorted again.  Amazing what a good night sleep will do

Another Milestone

Hey all; Just noticed I passed 300 posts this past week, and I am very proud to say that the post I made for my 300th I am very proud of. Again thanks to all of you for reading sometimes its nice to know someone is. Horse

Regrets, something we all have

Its been a very stressful 24 hours and I am not joking on that front, more car related issues and only 4 days before I must take it on a 6000km journey.  Its called cutting it fine. But today’s post isn’t about that, its about Regrets.   You see as I have gotten older and had this illness longer things that I had forgotten are slowly creeping back.  At best I cringe at worst, im terrified of what I did.  You see out of control I could and would do just about anything. I wish somehow I could break from the shackles of these memories to erase them.  To take away the hurt I feel about them and the embarrassment I caused myself in the process.  Whoever said they could live their lives with no regrets is a far better person than me. Now I know a lot of what went on was my illness and not the real me, but it scares me that it happened at all.  I want to distance myself from them but at the same time I understand that they are part of who I am today, like it or not. I th

How I have been

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Hi reader; I intimated a few posts ago about the health issues I am now facing as I age, and the drugs start to wear on my body.  My weight doesnt help issues but considering the affects of the medications and the lack of motivation I have had I think I am doing pretty well.  On top of that so does the doctor he seems to think, that considering im doing fairly well. I am finally getting the major health issues caused by my sinus passages and nasal cavity seen to.  I have continual bad infections in those areas the material from that infection runs down my throat and causes very very bad infections in my throat.  In the past 12 months I have been on medication for the infection 9 times, all anti-biotic combinations of very very strong medications.  They make it go away for a week or so then its a downard spiral into being unwell and endless coughing. I was coughing so hard at one point that my stomach and rib muscles would cramp up.  I often coughed until I vomited.  So as

Sometimes the Truth speaks volumes

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Was chatting with my mate on Skype this evening and he sent me a you-tube link.  Nothing unusual in that at all.  He said "I’m sure that this will put a smile on your face. Anyway if you haven’t seen this please take the time to watch, its nice to have some perspective in life.

Veyron

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As my dear readers all know I am a tiny bit of a car nutter.  Well more than a tiny bit.  I love cars, I love sports cars. Now let me talk about engineering for a minute.  Cars are extremely complex pieces of engineering that are continually advancing getting faster, safer, more fuel efficient and nicer to drive.  As such we must talk about one of the engineering marvels of my life time.  The Bugatti Veyron. When they were developing this car they were pushing the boundaries of what technology allowed to be possible, to me the numbers are simply mind boggling.  The standard super sport has a top speed of 431km/hr that is faster than a helicopter, in a car that has air bags, cd player air-conditioning.  For those who prefer the queens number that is 267mph.  We are witnessing a concord moment with this car, with the way the world is and the cost of fuel, these cars are I am afraid becoming more and more irrelevant.  Does that make me not want one ?  Hell if you handed the keys ove

Caeser and Rome

Rome and western history are inevitably linked.  Rome was the most influential civilization in human history and at one stage a 1/4 of the worlds population lived under its influence. Rome was a true empire with the focus on the glory and power of Rome at all costs.  It was cruel, unjust, dangerous and unstable.  But amongst all that we found sheer brilliance.   Rome had some truly amazing emperors, and some names that will forever live in infamy such as Nero and Caligula. I believe that what we believe about the former is more bad press than any truth. Caesar the name of the first true emperor of Rome was by all accounts simply brilliant.  His victory at Allisa, is still today considered one of the greatest in recorded history, 40,000 Romans defeated 250,000 Gauls.  He once and for all stamped his authority and therefore Rome's on Gaul. But to leave it there does not give a true volume of the man.  He realized and quite rightly that for Rome to prosper it needed one ruler.