The Old Tin Shed

Its been a long time since I last posted here my well of writing ran dry and although this may be a one off I need to write today. I have always been honest about my illness and in doing so have helped many and myself. I have an amazing life right now but my illness is getting worse and my need for further medications is hurting me. I have no faith in my abilites and that means the end of work unless i can over come it. Take care all of you life is never easy and all our futures are uncertain.  For now its a see you soon

The work I have been doing enters its last phase before billing today, the customer has expressed his happiness with the work and end numbers considering the amount of alterations that he has made. Me im just a thank fuck that is over.  I realize why I retired from this work a long time ago. (a) I'm not well enough for the extended stress (b) I'm sick of holding back what I really want to say to the client, especially when they change their mind half way through. (c) I really cant do the work any more I take everything personally where once it would have not mattered. SO yeah by doing this work I have put my mental health at risk.  Dumb stupid and downright dangerous is what I have done.  I'm lucky im not locked up in a mental ward.  But its all done but the shouting now soon will have the cash to get the equipment then comes the build and installation its all looking fairly easy so fingers crossed. Ohh so you all know going to use Redhat on the server but ...