The Old Tin Shed

Im Still angry; Im angry that someone one of my friends called the police, Im angry that I am out of control, all I wanted to do to the policeman that came here was to hurt him and his partner.  The paramedics the works.  LEAVE ME ALONE... I know legally that they cant, but im so angry of being put through it all.  For what to be sent home anyway.  Why cant I end my life the way I want.  Why must I live like this.  Its all well and good till shit happens and my world falls apart and no one can say anything or do anything to make it better. I warned the hospital I would pay for each day they had me there and now I am, so fuck me more reason to want to sue the whole fucken lot of them.  No drug interaction warnings nothing yet its known to have killed 350 people.  Fuck me is that not a reason to add 1 line to the warnings list. Im angry and im over everyone.  I go to sleep now need to be up in a couple hours and hope that we finish the ...

Hello all; Its been a few days since my last post and time is marching on already into the new year.  It will be easter before we know it.  I noticed the supermarkets are selling eggs already.  But today's post is not to do with that its to deal with something that in the past week has caused me to get extremely pissed off with people close to me.  When I go to the trouble to say something at least give me the respect to listen.  3 times in 3 days I have had to repeat myself and something I said because someone hasn't listen the first time and then they try to blame me for the predicament they find themselves in.  I hate the inclination that I was somehow to blame because they did not listen to the advice I had given them.  Its annoying beyond belief and made me quite angry. I think I mentioned in a previous post that my Psychiatrist, is quite worried about the amount of anger I am carrying and the potential for someone to inadvertently push ...

Hey all; well the cycle continues im crashing and fairly hard at that. Physically unwell I caught a stomach bug over christmas and my usuall complaints left me on 4 lots of anti biotics this past week. Im over tired, I am stressed and I have been having thoughts of suicide once again.  Been to the point of planning in my head how I will end it.  What I will leave behind and ultimately what I believe will happen to my body and my soul once I die. It cant be right to be punished this way, I have paid more for my mistakes than any man on earth I am sure.  Tonight I am sitting here sleep not coming like it should.  I have taken the normal med supply will delve into the extra's shortly. So why do I say its a cycle.  Every year since my breakdown I come off a kind of manic high and collapse into a depressed state.  No its worse than that I fall into a place where I no longer care if I wake up tomorrow or not.  Where I no longer care what people thi...

Ok this is a rant.  Im fuming right now.  So mad in fact I cant even think straight. So some background.  Mid last year friends of ours recommended a mechanic to us, as he was just starting out, and needed customers.  I have taken 4 different cars to him spending a combined amount of around $5k.  Not a bad customer hey.   Well I was invited for drinks each Friday at the end of the day, and to help clean up. You know move cars around tidy up etc. Well all was fine, in fact before the long weekend Greg had come over to see my partner and myself at Bunnings in the car park all friendly etc.  I saw him this Monday just been to replace the alternator ribbed belt, he was rather cool but I was unwell so decided to let it slide and catch up for a cold can of coke on Thursday.  I turned up Thursday was was given the cold shoulder.  Thought ok he was probably a bit busy, so turned up for drinks on Friday.  He walk...

There have been very few times throughout my life that I can honestly say that I have been ashamed to be an Australian citizen.  I am normally very proud of what this country stands for and its values.  Well today I don't feel that way at all. Im not sure how many news services around the world reported the going on in Sydney a couple of days ago.  An illegal protest was arranged an it turned violent.  Sydney Riot To say I am angry and disgusted by these actions is an understatement, most Australian are, and average people are asking why should we allow these people in our society.  We are a free society where protest and being heard are part of the equation.  The violence was unacceptable leave your hate at the door when you come here or simply put most Australians don't want you here. It has brought out the best and the worst of the multiculturalism in this country, what happened is unacceptable and I think one image from the day says it all. ...

If you searched this post then you know I am talking about the global phenomena, of sitting in against corporate and government greed.  This movement seems to have galvanized the disenfranchised from all walks of life.  They call themselves the 99%, and I somewhat  agree with them. Most Australians say nothing, they wont protest they wont act to make a noise, the only time you see them unhappy is when they vote.  The vote is the outlet for peoples displeasure with the world. Now in any other time in Australian history the change by voting would make a sea change in ideas.  That is not the case today, both sides aim for the middle and we the voting public are left with no real choice.  With company profits soaring, governments seen is inept at taping that wealth for the nation, more and more people are feeling left behind. There is also an underlying anger that mining companies such as BHP Biliton make ...