I feel the need to write

Its been a long time since I last posted here my well of writing ran dry and although this may be a one off I need to write today.

I have always been honest about my illness and in doing so have helped many and myself.

I have an amazing life right now but my illness is getting worse and my need for further medications is hurting me.

I have no faith in my abilites and that means the end of work unless i can over come it.

Take care all of you life is never easy and all our futures are uncertain.  For now its a see you soon

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