So the Cycle continues
Hey all; well the cycle continues im crashing and fairly hard at that. Physically unwell I caught a stomach bug over christmas and my usuall complaints left me on 4 lots of anti biotics this past week. Im over tired, I am stressed and I have been having thoughts of suicide once again. Been to the point of planning in my head how I will end it. What I will leave behind and ultimately what I believe will happen to my body and my soul once I die. It cant be right to be punished this way, I have paid more for my mistakes than any man on earth I am sure. Tonight I am sitting here sleep not coming like it should. I have taken the normal med supply will delve into the extra's shortly. So why do I say its a cycle. Every year since my breakdown I come off a kind of manic high and collapse into a depressed state. No its worse than that I fall into a place where I no longer care if I wake up tomorrow or not. Where I no longer care what people thi...