The Old Tin Shed

Whats started.  Not something important to others but to me its a major step forward.  It means mentally I have changed position yet again. That is really important in my longer term recovery and understanding of my own illness. So whats started.  I can listen to new music again.  Doesn't sound like much but it is.  Until recently new music made me tense and paranoid.  Then after all the stress of the last week changed me.  Now I crave new sounds new music.  It also has another meaning one that is extremely important to me, it means that I can now enjoy my gaming without having to give it up after 40 minutes. I am becoming the old me, the me that was ok that enjoyed to explore the world around him.  If I gain one more thing back, I will have recovered the parts of me that I wanted back.  That were taken away by the illness and medications.  I just need to be able to write short stories again.  I miss that creative ou...

I was one of the first to grow up with computers, my first console was an Atari 64 first PC a commodore 64 with tape drive.  Its where I became a gamer.  Today the average gamer is in their 30's and games are more violent and realistic than ever. Full immersion is the goal, to become part of the game, to escape the reality of the world in which you live.  Have heard many a time, ït will rot your brain", "gaming will never get you anywhere, its anti social".  That is one way of looking at it.  But I prefer the alternate view and that is I have lived a double life.  http://youtu.be/6Bqq38WZctA .  Suggest you stop by that and you will get what I mean Transcript For years, I've lived a double life. In the day, I do my job I ride the bus, roll up my sleeves with the hoi polloi. But at night, I live a life of exhilaration, of missed heartbeats and adrenalin. And, if the truth be known, a life of dubious virtue. I won't deny it I've been engaged in vi...