The Old Tin Shed

Hi all, I know this has been doing the rounds of late, but it made me smile and have that nice warm fuzzy feeling you get when you think all is right with the world. My oldest son is six years old and in love for the first time. He is in love with Blaine from Glee.  For those who don’t know Blaine is a boy…a gay boy, the boyfriend of one of the main characters, Kurt. This isn't a ‘he thinks Blaine is really cool’ kind of love. It is a mooning at a picture of Blaine’s face for a half hour followed by a wistful “He’s so pretty” kind of love. He loves the episode where two boys kiss. My son will call people in from other parts of the house to make sure they don’t miss his ‘favorite part.’ He’s been known to rewind it and watch it over again…and force others to, as well, if he doesn't think people have been paying enough attention. This infatuation doesn't bother me or his father. We live in a very hip-liberal neighborhood, many of our friends are gay, and idea of havin...

Was watching the TV just now and three little words had me crying like a baby. Thats my Son. Its what dad said the day I surprised him on Holidays, he was crying he was so happy to see me.   Great memory, and a moment to live for

Well all I return with some semblance of my sanity.  Has been a tough couple days, didn't feel like talking eating (I need to not eat more often lol ), or in general communicate in any way form or manner.  However unlike others who don't shower or shave or ... well u get what I mean, I am the opposite I shower and preen myself to the point i am OCD, I wash all my clothes even if they are clean.  God forbid I should Iron though now that's just one step to far lol. Why wont someone buy this car ? Well per usual got stood up 3 times over the weekend when it comes to the car.  Disappointed hurt and very annoyed that people don't even have the common courtesy to call you and say they are not coming.  I suppose one good thing out of it all is that I got the car spotlessly clean, and now I can put the car service off till next week.  I am so emotionally invested in getting rid of this car, I think it was...

I was reminded today, of how much we have, how much we take for granted, and the huge cost that it has come at. We in the west have a lifestyle that is unequaled in human history, we live in vast cities, and can travel around the world in hours not days.  We are the most traveled peoples ever. But at what cost? Since the start of the 20th century we were embroiled in conflict after conflict, the first world war saw an old way of life, of royalty and empire thrown against each other.  The huge industrial complexes on each side created a meat grinder when men, flesh and bone were pitted against hot steel.  At the end the west was decimated, the cost in human lives unprecedented in human history.  It carried the catch phrase of the war to end all wars.  Yet it was the peace thrashed out after the first world war, that laid the seeds for a war on a scale we had never seen before. I wont go into the second world war, suffice to say that it was horrific with ent...

Well just got off the phone to my mother.  Once again she is in crisis, after she had her rental assistance cut because my uncle failed to return a document for her social security payments. To be honest I was harsh.  I have given up pandering to her problems, things that can easily be fixed that she chooses to make a major incident out of.  I have had a complete gut full of her playing the damn victim.  Truth is she isn't, she just chooses not to fix things and then bitches and moans when things don't go right. So why did she not confirm with my uncle as to if he had received the forms she needed ?  Now she needs him urgently and she cant get him.  Me if I send something via mail I always confirm its arrived if its important.  Its called following up, after all mail goes missing all the time. I ended the conversation by telling her once again she needed mental help, that she needed someone to help her gain the tools to move forward.  I ...

The following information was provided as part of Bo's information pack.  I remember reading this years ago, and unfortunately I do not know who to reference this work to, other than to say I think it sums up the breed wonderfully.  If there are typographical errors I apologize in advance as I am re typing this document. Our Bo Baby Over 150 years ago the "sportsmen" of the day set about breeding a fighting dog. In the beginning they crossed the English Bull Dog with various Terriers, their objective was to combine the strength and immunity to pain of the Bull Dog with the speed and fire of the Terrier, the first progeny being know as Bull Terriers Around this time (1840-1850) dog fighting was a fashionable "sport", Since then the Bull Terrier has been put to every use and abuse in his development to the more elegant and refined animal of today. Physically, the  Bull Terrier of today is the supreme athlete of Dogdom, often referred to as the Gladia...

So what do you do when someone refuses to forgive you for something you did?  Well im sure there are volumes of psych study that cover this, and the interactions to lead to such situations.  However I will share my experience in the hope others can get something out of it. My father passed away over 2 years ago now, and I miss him every day.  When he was young my grandparents help raise one of my uncles (non blood), after his father left him abandoned.  My uncle Max and my father grew up together and were close for most of their adult lives. As I have stated before during my mental collapse I hurt my parents pretty badly, and with my financial collapse as well my parents lost the way of life that my income provided.  From the outside it looked like I had intentionally made this happen.  Of course we all know now that it was my self destruction that caused the havoc. My parents and my dads sister forgave me, they understood that it wasn't me during t...

Its late here, heading to bed soon but I thought I would share this with the blog world first.  I was laying back on the bed just before looking at a picture of my late father.  A man i still miss terribly, and I doubt my mother will ever get over his loss.  I was thinking back to all the things we did, some of its blurry thanks to my illness but some of it is crystal clear.  My father had a lot of jobs in his life from a Dairy farmer to transport supervisor and just a general truck driver.  There were plenty of jobs in between also.  I realized tonight that there was something more than just missing him, i missed going to his workplace as well.  More importantly I have now realized that, I may never do one thing again in my life.  I know this sounds stupid but the smell of a vat of fresh cold milk really means something to me now. I find it interesting all these great memories are based around that smell.  Its not the same as the smell o...

Well this is the first of one of those heavy life changing blog posts that I will do from time to time.  This topic is very close to my own heart and what is my meaning of family. Some 38 years ago my parents picked up a baby boy blue eyes blond hair.  He was not born to them but to another woman. For reasons still unknown to that child today, she decided that she should give me up for adoption. They say that children make a family, that they are often the glue that holds a family together when times get tough. My family wasn't like that. Within a year of my adoption my sister joined the family she was also adopted. What did I mean when I said my family wasn't like that.  Its not that my parents were bad parents, in fact they tried their very best.  But they had one hurdle that they could never possibly cover.  That both of us showed psychological signs of illness because we had been adopted.  Most if not all children who are adopted have some kind of...

Why is it that everything to do with my family has strings attached.  I will try and make this a brief as possible but I need to give you some background first. My father passed away recently after a long protracted fight with cancer, I hadn't been down to see him or mum in several years, so I made the effort.  I hired a rental car and drove the 3500kms to see my parents.  The whole time I had not seen them they made out the me that they had no money that their cars were falling apart and that they needed help.  I arrive in the driveway to find not 1 but 2 new cars one only months old.  I didn't get upset or anything just let it go because dad was failing.  I stayed a two weeks then returned home with a promise I would be back at Christmas, another 3500kms and I was home. Week before Christmas in my brand new Suzuki swift, I drove down to see them again.  We had a wonderful Christmas, the first time we had all been together in many many years....