The Old Tin Shed

How can it be that you are right in front of me, How can it be, because I saw the life extinguish from your eyes, How can it be, when tendon sinew and bone were shattered. You are as beautiful as I remember, how can it be your here in front of me How can it be I watch your lips move but cant hear what you are saying How can it be seeing your face feels like home, How can it be that your presence makes the panic I feel go How can it be your light makes me feel loved and appreciated How can it be that when I reach for you your gone How can it be this is just another goodbye How can it be this distance I cannot surmount I awake from the dream fully crying at my deep loss I ask how can it be you would answer because I love you One day we will be together again, each dream and moment is precious I love you to Horse

Hi all; Been a while since I posted, last you heard of me I was pretty down and unwell, the down bits gone but the glandular fever has not.  It knocked me on my ass last night and that was not pleasant.  Im unwell today been sleeping on and off without realizing it all day. Tomorrow hope to finish a quote and organize a meeting.  With the end result being a go ahead next week to deliver a new network. My personal life has been funny my ex and I still talk a lot mainly about him and his problems, we have now completely separated which had to happen, I could not keep him reliant on me and the other way around.  My new friend yes I said friend is meaning more and more to me each day but there will be no moving in before the end of the lease here. Now this may shock a few of you but we are talking about using ECT on me to give me a break from the meds.  Yes this is a treatment that I have actively campaigned against in the past but some recent breakthroughs ...

A wondering I wll go You know when your sick, the fever sick the one that overheats the brain and you have physical breakdown.  Two of those this weeks. 4 times I have woken up saying where am I to answer off im still there then.  Then off into random dreams. This is the second time with glandular fever this bad.  I think its ironic but hey thats the flat aussie humor.  Reality is im really unwell and have to take it easily so thats that I will be doing. Horse