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My Sympathy

Tonight we hear the terrible news of bodies being found in yet another Asian aircraft disaster.  It has been a bad year with the loss of so many aircraft.  As the year comes to a close, my thoughts turn to the families and the heartache and feelings of loss they must all be feeling. I hope that they can retrieve all of those who were lost this time, and take them back to their families and friends for a proper goodbye.  I just hope for the victims it was over before they realised what was going on.  I cant think of anything worse then spending my last moments in pure terror. I also hope we learn, learn about what brought this latest aircraft down, but more importantly what we can do different in the future to ensure that this never happens again. Peace to all Horse

Free Them Now

I have kept out of this till now, but I can no longer be quiet.  I am calling for the release of the Aljazeera journalists held in Egypt on trumped up charges. It is never ever acceptable to jail or target those who try to bring about the news and information about the things that need reporting.  Without them our information is distorted at best 365 days and counting.  We cannot stand by, we cannot watch, we must act, we must talk out.  Get these innocent men freed Horse

Rage, hate, destruction

Im not great today, trigger by events from yesterday, im so angry I dont know how to cope.  Im turning the hatred on myself, because it must be my fault, that it happened. After all I am supposed to be the smart on the one people fear in board rooms, where I can dismantle the most complex stories and show the true meaning behind things.  This gift this ability comes from the illness and I pay for it.  I am sick of taking meds, I think after 10 years I get the right to say that, even though they have paved a better way of life for me, there are times I think I would have been better not being treated at all. I quite simply dont want to be here because yet again when I went to get my medications from the drug store they were denied me.  It was a med I can not do without full stop.  I got it in the end at another drug store but it should never have gotten that far.  I am crippled without my meds and now mentally im crippled when I go to get them expecting them to turn me down. I see

This that and the other thing

Hi all, sorry long time between posts but hey go shoot me. Anyway wanted to wish you all a belated Merry Christmas and a Happy and safe new year. My life mills on as it always does, I find sometimes im ok and sometimes im not.  Its not easy being me, its not easy to live my life.  Little things get to me and people go out of their way at times to make things hard.  But in the end it will hurt them worse because thats how KAMA works. I'm worried, I'm always worried it seems, I think I have a big project going on in Jan so just have to get it over the line.  It will be hard work but I think the outcomes will be fantastic.  It will also allow me some breathing space when its done.  I don't like this time of the year for a lot of reasons but primarily it sees the end of my up mood from the BP, usually in early to mid Jan I fall into the depressed sate of the illness.  I find that I am paralyzed with no ability to move forward or back during this stage.  I hope like hell i